I'm at my moms work.
she's a first grade teacher.
Everyone's cute so suppose it's okay.
I'm freaking sick of not being in school.
I WANT SCHOOOOOLLL TOOO STARTT.
name six songs that you are currently digging. it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. post these instructions and then list the six artists and the songs in your livejournal. then tag six other people to see what they're listening to.
I was tagged by: Allie, my love.
1. The Ring Song- The Bravery
2. Bleeding Mascara- Atreyu
3. Selfish Man Live in LA- Flogging Molly
4. The No Seatbelt Song- Brand New
5. The Martyr- Cursive
6. Tyrant- The Bravery
I'm actually somewhat ready to go back to school.
Summers starting to wear on me, it's the same old monotony of doing nothing day after day.
Then going to The Jungle on Fridays, maybe an occasional movie, go to the skate park, going downtown.
And I'm sorry, but it gets old.
Besides, I'm happy to find a change of scenery at Summit, I think new people will be good for me.
Even though I truly do love my friends,
even though they're all crazy.
Yesterday I went shopping with Jenny,
that was cool.
I bought baggy reddish-brown pants that I wanna use for anything from sleeping, to crew, to school.
I also bought The Bravery, Rise Against, and Atreyu.
I needed all those.
My Itunes was feeling lonely and neglected of new music.
So I'm happy now,
I'm a cowgirl
and you suck
bite this, beeeeiiitchhh!
I went to The Jungle last night.
I hung out with Jenny a lot.
We just talked about so many things, it was really good.
I saw John for the first time since...uhh we went to the beach.
I kinda had feelings for him again...it's probably just a fling.
It's failure by design.
Wow. I just got home from crew, I went with Laura who does crew religiously. I love it, it was a whole different world out there. At the time, the workout didn't feel too strenuous, but now I feel like I'm about to pass out. I think I'm going to start doing this regularly. Chris, our instructor, said he was very impressed by me, and the people are all extremely nice. However, I still feel like I'm on my orbit, so exuse me while I watch some serious Lifetime, and eat.
I feel happy with myself, I feel like I've really grown so much over the past couple months here. Just with life overall, I know I fuck up, I know I WILL fuck up again, and I know how to handle it better in the future. My relationship with Bryce changed my life completely. And I understand what people like Jenny were talking about. Once when she told me not to let him see me crumble, and I was absolutely dumbfounded as why she would say that. I basically listened to no one, not even the people I loved and cared about most. But since they love me, they've mostly forgiven me and helped me move forward. And I can safely look back on it and say I'm happy it happened. There were MISERABLE moments, but I figured out so many great things that have shaped me as a person. I will still make mistakes in relationships but I feel so much more confident in myself and I'll never forget everything I've learned, even though it took me months and months to figure them all out. Sure, I have regrets- but that's where the lessons come from. I think about how lucky I am that I was forced to learn all these things at such a young age and so quickly. But I guess this is part of growing up?
PS: I'm so glad I got Bryce out of my life. It made the difference, and I feel strong again. For 6 months I felt like I didn't know myself anymore, and I hurt the people around me. But I feel like I've been given a second chance. I guess where this is going is: Jenny- I know you think I suck majorly, but at the Jungle, I felt sad seeing you, because you and I used to be best friends. So you don't have to act upon this, or even respond in any way- you don't even have to listen to this....but I'm sorry.
Laura came over last night and we watched scary movies.
I forgot how freaky The Ring really is.
Libby slept over the other night, and I hung out with Rachel today, then David and I chilled a couple days ago. I've made a goal to see at least one person everyday, and so far it's working out quite nicely.
I've been talked to Lily a lot on AIM,
I lauve Lily.
whoa. crazy stuff just happened. It's 5:13 AM and Daniel and David just came over and we sat on the balcony and just fucked around. ahah! marvelous.
sleep? HELLZZ NO BITCH!
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