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Baby Baby [Saturday
August 27th 1:42am]
I'm at my moms work.
she's a first grade teacher.
Everyone's cute so suppose it's okay.

I'm freaking sick of not being in school.
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August 22nd 4:07pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

name six songs that you are currently digging. it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. post these instructions and then list the six artists and the songs in your livejournal. then tag six other people to see what they're listening to.

I was tagged by: Allie, my love.

1. The Ring Song- The Bravery
2. Bleeding Mascara- Atreyu
3. Selfish Man Live in LA- Flogging Molly
4. The No Seatbelt Song- Brand New
5. The Martyr- Cursive
6. Tyrant- The Bravery

I Tag:
Flowbee (numbers?)

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just noises in my head. [Saturday
August 20th 1:41pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I'm actually somewhat ready to go back to school.

Summers starting to wear on me, it's the same old monotony of doing nothing day after day.
Then going to The Jungle on Fridays, maybe an occasional movie, go to the skate park, going downtown.
And I'm sorry, but it gets old.

Besides, I'm happy to find a change of scenery at Summit, I think new people will be good for me.
Even though I truly do love my friends,
even though they're all crazy.

Yesterday I went shopping with Jenny,
that was cool.
I bought baggy reddish-brown pants that I wanna use for anything from sleeping, to crew, to school.
So yay.

I also bought The Bravery, Rise Against, and Atreyu.
I needed all those.
My Itunes was feeling lonely and neglected of new music.

So I'm happy now,
good day.

forget what you think you know about me [Tuesday
August 16th 10:01am]
[ mood | exhausted ]


I'm a cowgirl

and you suck

bite this, beeeeiiitchhh!

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this time i got nothing to say besides: do do do do do do do do [Saturday
August 13th 10:18pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I went to The Jungle last night.
I hung out with Jenny a lot.
We just talked about so many things, it was really good.
I saw John for the first time since...uhh we went to the beach.
I kinda had feelings for him again...it's probably just a fling.
It's failure by design.

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hey babe, take a walk on the wild side [Thursday
August 11th 12:44pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Wow. I just got home from crew, I went with Laura who does crew religiously. I love it, it was a whole different world out there. At the time, the workout didn't feel too strenuous, but now I feel like I'm about to pass out. I think I'm going to start doing this regularly. Chris, our instructor, said he was very impressed by me, and the people are all extremely nice. However, I still feel like I'm on my orbit, so exuse me while I watch some serious Lifetime, and eat.

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August 10th 12:59am]
[ mood | enlightened ]

I feel happy with myself, I feel like I've really grown so much over the past couple months here. Just with life overall, I know I fuck up, I know I WILL fuck up again, and I know how to handle it better in the future. My relationship with Bryce changed my life completely. And I understand what people like Jenny were talking about. Once when she told me not to let him see me crumble, and I was absolutely dumbfounded as why she would say that. I basically listened to no one, not even the people I loved and cared about most. But since they love me, they've mostly forgiven me and helped me move forward. And I can safely look back on it and say I'm happy it happened. There were MISERABLE moments, but I figured out so many great things that have shaped me as a person. I will still make mistakes in relationships but I feel so much more confident in myself and I'll never forget everything I've learned, even though it took me months and months to figure them all out. Sure, I have regrets- but that's where the lessons come from. I think about how lucky I am that I was forced to learn all these things at such a young age and so quickly. But I guess this is part of growing up?

PS: I'm so glad I got Bryce out of my life. It made the difference, and I feel strong again. For 6 months I felt like I didn't know myself anymore, and I hurt the people around me. But I feel like I've been given a second chance. I guess where this is going is: Jenny- I know you think I suck majorly, but at the Jungle, I felt sad seeing you, because you and I used to be best friends. So you don't have to act upon this, or even respond in any way- you don't even have to listen to this....but I'm sorry.

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she wants to go fast, and never collapse, and never come back [Monday
August 8th 8:31pm]
[ mood | awake ]

*lauves you*

Laura came over last night and we watched scary movies.
I forgot how freaky The Ring really is.
Libby slept over the other night, and I hung out with Rachel today, then David and I chilled a couple days ago. I've made a goal to see at least one person everyday, and so far it's working out quite nicely.

I've been talked to Lily a lot on AIM,
I lauve Lily.


YA. [Friday
August 5th 5:13am]
whoa. crazy stuff just happened. It's 5:13 AM and Daniel and David just came over and we sat on the balcony and just fucked around. ahah! marvelous.
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August 5th 3:33am]
PS- incase anyone is confused about where the 'comment' button is located. It's very small. In the bottom right hand corner. Please search for it. It's most definitely there.
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August 5th 3:21am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Gawd. I've just been hanging out with people a ton.
Tonight Laura, Daniel, David, Erny, Megan, Azodia, and myself all hung out.
It was pretty cool because at the end of the night, after everyone had left, David and Daniel and I just TALKED. Like really talked. About important, real, meaningful things. It's cool to always be fooling around, but when you really settle down like that- it's a change. A nice change.

I love abandoning all my responsibilities and doing everything last minute- I'm wonderfully amazing.

I feel pretty lately.
That's a good thing.
It's a good feeling<3

Don't get me wrong- I'm still jealous, bitchy, whiney, stubborn, immature, and everything else. But lets put all that on hold, okay?

I'm not making sense.
I feel like I'm in love.

And I have a secret that you won't find out about.

July 30th 1:24am]
[ mood | tired ]

Tonight I went to the Jungle with a bunch of people. It was really nice seeing everyone, especially since I've been gone for a week.
Allie came too! That was really great, she looked good, she had red hair! Very pretty. I love you Allie, very much!
We watched a couple bands play- one of them was actually pretty good. Some were really bad too. We also just walked around and hung out, everyone ate pizza at one point or another at Pizza My Heart.
There was something with Marika's skateboard, but unfortunately there's some things that people aren't meant to work out. It's like sometimes if shit happens, you try to make it better, but if it doesn't work, you move on.
Jenny was there too. It was cool that we weren't totally weird with eachother.
So all in all, it was a really fun night.
Shit. I'm still kinda jetlagged.

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July 29th 12:40am]
I pretty much just got home from Hawaii.
It was really nice to break the monotony of Menlo Park.
I also got a killer tan.
When I came home my room was cover in Post-its. and roses.
<333 yessss.
They were funny, it totally made my night.
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Birthdayyy<33 [Tuesday
July 19th 6:09pm]
Okay. Yesterday was my birthday, and everyone threw me a "suprise" party...although I found out about it before it happened. Oops!
So a bunch of us had dinner at Pasta? and then walked around downtown Palo Alto...then ended up hanging out at the skate park. By the time we got there some people had gone home, so basically it was me, Laura, Daniel, and Chris hanging out. At the end we ran threw the sprinklers.
It was super fun.
Oh and Erny and Daniel gave me a vibrating dildo.
Again, super fun.
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July 16th 12:42am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Tonight, like many previous nights, I hung out with Daniel, David, Ernie, Marika, and some girl named Katie..? Anyway, I think I've realized that hanging out with them means at some point during the night, someone will cry, get mad, get beaten up, someone catches fire, the cops will come, or something bad will happen. I don't think there could ever be a time when we just sit around and have fun and everyone gets along and is happy. Why is that? Someone always has to say something rude to someone else, or spontaneously ditch someone in the group- then emotions skyrocket to the all time high- and all hell breaks loose. People never really get along, and someone always goes home feeling like shit. Tonight, it wasn't me going home feeling like that, it was Marika, however I notice that someone always does feel like that. And the others never make a huge attempt- if any- to console that person. It's slightly fucked up and I sometimes question what they consider a true friend to be. It's not someone to hurt your feelings, make you feel unwanted, make you feel guilty. It's not someone who you constantly run away from, or talk shit about, or send mixed messages. A true friend is someone to hang out with, someone to lean on, someone to listen to and talk to. A true friend is someone who cares unconditionally, you're not their rebound and you're not belittled by them. You're their equal and you're genuinly appricated by them. So why don't some people understand that? If you're going to commit to a friendship; don't do it half assed. Do it whole heartedly, and be someone who is loved and who is fun to be around. Be someone who people trust and respect, it's not hard. Don't be an asshole, especially when you don't even have a reason, or motive whatsoever. This was indeed venting. And this can't be argued, because it's all the fucking truth. If you've even read this whole thing, I'm impressed. Now go be a fucking good friend, bitch.

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Hold on to me, I'm right here waiting [Friday
July 15th 10:55am]
It's summer.
It's complicated.
I've just been hanging out with people all the time
And I've realized
I hate flakes.
And I hate biggots.
I have a wonderful tan.
I love my hair.
It's a good life.
Maybe pictures later.
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July 10th 1:39pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

♥ Why?????

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July 9th 1:14pm]
I got my new layout from Dolled Up Designs.
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Time means nothing [Friday
July 8th 7:54pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hi. I'm Lexi. I love Rachel. She's hot.

I would love to be fucked! Anyone welcome.

Le fin.

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summer time [Thursday
June 23rd 9:41am]
[ mood | cranky ]

summer is....eh.
I've just been hangin out with people.
I have a lot of goals for this summer though.
*lose weight (at least 10 lbs, therefore weighing...115.)
*do the fucking online summer school in like 2 weeks (yeah right)
*learn something new. i guess that's pretty vague.
*get a good camera. helllllz yeah.
Okay there's more but i'm sick of writing. bye.

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